Over the last year I have had to say goodbye to so many people. It has been one of the hardest things for me to do, even tho it may not be shown on the outside deep down it breaks my heart. It started last summer when all of sudden I was going out the lodge to work for the summer. I had to start saying goodbye to friends that I wouldn't see till September or December or even as long as this May...wow that was reality to me that the next chapter of life was starting. My summer consisted of many emails with my friends keeping each other updated on all of our little adventures of summer and when they all started school and I was still working in the middle of Alaskan Mountains. Next work was over and I was saying goodbye to all my new friends that were made or should I say my new summer family and it was home for a few days and lets see everyone catch up from the last four months and then say goodbye again to wind up in Oregon at Ecola Bible School where I knew absolutely no one and I was terrified. The year began and I started forming what where to become AMAZING friendships. Then Christmas break rolls around and saying goodbye for a month was odd, but I knew I was going home to see family and friends that I hadn't seen since May or October and I had ONE month to catch up with them all. As break ended it was goodbye again until May. I got back to school and those friendships became stronger and better as the year went on. And of course the year came to and end faster than we all wanted and as graduation day rolled around and we were all leaving and saying goodbye again it was hard yet again. I was just reminding myself I would be seeing them again, sometime, that time I just wasn't sure of. But the plus was I get to see my family and friends that I haven't see since December and some even a year ago now. So I was ready to do some good old catching up. And now my time is running out. I go back to the lodge this week and fitting people in to visit and enjoy each others stories is hard when you are on call to leave any day now. And now its time to say goodbye again to everyone. Most I wont see again until December and some I will squeeze in a visit with when I return from work for a few days before heading back to Oregon.
My life is wonderful no doubt but goodbye is hard and it is a constant cycle of hello, visit, and goodbye.
Now you may say, so what makes saying goodbye so easy for? Well this year I came to realization of the beauty of Eternity and I never put that much thought into until now and my goodbyes are never ending, it seems. And then I think...wait its not goodbye, its I will see you later. You never really know when later is, but it sounds so much better than goodbye. Just think of Eternity spending with all the people you love and being with them ALWAYS! Let me tell you I can't wait. So as I wait I enjoy the time I have with those around me and yes I do miss those away from me and know I will see them again, one day. God knows when that will be and it will be so Good.
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